A Japanese lesson note
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A Japanese person write something in english for training.Mishika2024-03-23T22:47:53+09:00ja03/23 Fiscal Year change
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2024-03-23
Fiscal year in company I work starts 16th March.The company executes major organization change at beginning of fiscal year.Dept. I belong to have some big change. I keep same work and project at moment.The organization change some change in team I belong. Some new people starts in the team.I know I have a jittery feeling about change in team because I have difficulty about condition change.My diaryMishika2024-03-23T22:47:53+09:00
The company executes major organization change at beginning of fiscal year.
Dept. I belong to have some big change. I keep same work and project at moment.
The organization change some change in team I belong. Some new people starts in the team.
I know I have a jittery feeling about change in team because I have difficulty about condition change.
]]>Anger
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2022-09-11
I napped today. Maybe I dreamed unpleasant experience in work. I felt anger and woke up. After I woke up, I felt tired about anger.I know I'm the person who remember resentment. So, I sometime remember passed experience with anger.But, today's dream made me in fury and tired. I wonder why I have too much fury at moment.Experience I dreamed is passed event, not current issue.My diaryMishika2022-09-11T13:07:12+09:00
I know I'm the person who remember resentment. So, I sometime remember passed experience with anger.
But, today's dream made me in fury and tired. I wonder why I have too much fury at moment.
Experience I dreamed is passed event, not current issue.
]]>Resignment
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2022-03-13
One management person resigned. I don't know him so much even though I worked with him for 2 years.Actually, I write this note not for him but my feeling about colleague resignation.Maybe I'll keep work in my current office until my retirement.Until now, some my business colleague was resigned to change job. And until my retirement, I will see some other colleague finished his work in my office.Of course, I won't and can't do anything about other person's decision to his or her career and life.But, I'm worried about affect of their resignation to my work.My business and technical skill is not good. People to resign has better skill than me.I can't replace their position and their work. I'm worried about I can't proceed my work without their power.My diaryMishika2022-03-13T17:21:45+09:00
Actually, I write this note not for him but my feeling about colleague resignation.
Maybe I'll keep work in my current office until my retirement.Until now, some my business colleague was resigned to change job. And until my retirement, I will see some other colleague finished his work in my office.
Of course, I won't and can't do anything about other person's decision to his or her career and life.
But, I'm worried about affect of their resignation to my work.
My business and technical skill is not good. People to resign has better skill than me.
I can't replace their position and their work. I'm worried about I can't proceed my work without their power.
]]>Assasin's creed vallhalla
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2022-02-13
Recently I play Assassin's creed vallhalla. This game start selling from 10th Nov.2020 and I bought it.About 1 year, I didn't play this game because I was too tired in my business.I re-start to playing. This game is fun.One point I 'm regret is to need some time to start. This gives me pause in playing.My diaryMishika2022-02-13T22:44:14+09:00
About 1 year, I didn't play this game because I was too tired in my business.
I re-start to playing. This game is fun.
One point I 'm regret is to need some time to start. This gives me pause in playing.
]]>Worker with developmental disability
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2022-01-02
Recently, a worker who may have developmental disability works in our team. Of course, I know I don't have enough medical knowledge and experience to perform physical examination. But, I believe developmental disability is one of root cause of his low performance.He needs twice time as other person including me to work. He doesn't proceed his work according to process defined in many times even though other person claims to do as defined in several times. He makes many mistakes during his work. He needs much other person's support and effort. And also, he seems not to understand that he makes trouble.He started his work in our team about 1 year. At first, I tried to explain work to him, support his work. But, his performance wasn't improved in my point of view. I also consulted what and how to improve his work to my manager. But, I gave up to improve his work, work attitude and support his work because he needs too much effort and I found he may be insensitive person.I wish that his work contract is terminat..My diaryMishika2022-01-02T22:07:46+09:00
He needs twice time as other person including me to work. He doesn't proceed his work according to process defined in many times even though other person claims to do as defined in several times. He makes many mistakes during his work. He needs much other person's support and effort. And also, he seems not to understand that he makes trouble.
He started his work in our team about 1 year. At first, I tried to explain work to him, support his work. But, his performance wasn't improved in my point of view. I also consulted what and how to improve his work to my manager.
But, I gave up to improve his work, work attitude and support his work because he needs too much effort and I found he may be insensitive person.
I wish that his work contract is terminated. But, his contract is still continued unfortunately for me.
]]>Subcontractor worker
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2021-03-21
In my office, many subcontractor workers works as business partner.They work based on business contradiction between our company and their subcontractor company. Usually, our company needs special technical skill and/or work resource.Some subcontractor workers make great work. Our business can't be achieved without their support.On the other hand, some subcontractor worker doesn't output work result as they are expected and defined in their contract.Such kinds of less skilled workers need other person's help and support. This kinds of support sometimes decrease work efficiency.I have seen such condition sometimes.I know good work support make efficient in office. But, inefficient support makes less skilled workers depend other works support and make bad effect to our business.I remember a worker who finally escaped from our office before he completed his work even though his co-workers make much effort.I thought that our manager should terminate his contract before co-workers spent too much effort.Of course, ..My diaryMishika2021-03-21T22:13:45+09:00
They work based on business contradiction between our company and their subcontractor company. Usually, our company needs special technical skill and/or work resource.
Some subcontractor workers make great work. Our business can't be achieved without their support.
On the other hand, some subcontractor worker doesn't output work result as they are expected and defined in their contract.
Such kinds of less skilled workers need other person's help and support. This kinds of support sometimes decrease work efficiency.
I have seen such condition sometimes.
I know good work support make efficient in office. But, inefficient support makes less skilled workers depend other works support and make bad effect to our business.
I remember a worker who finally escaped from our office before he completed his work even though his co-workers make much effort.
I thought that our manager should terminate his contract before co-workers spent too much effort.
Of course, I know this kinds of decision is difficult.
]]>Assistant work
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2020-12-27
In my office, some people work as assistant. I don't know exactly about what kinds of work my company defines as assistant work because I haven't worked as assistant. But, I think their work is to support engineers because I have been helped by some of assistants in my offices in many times.But, I suspect whether this may be just my assumption because I know one assistant person seems to me not to motivation to have support to engineer.In my point of view, she just do minimum desk work of assistant. Instead of the work, she spend more time to insist how she thinks her work eagerly than other assistant members.In my point of view, she might think herself as considerable person then as she is.I have some complicated feeling to her because her work may be inefficient and her work sometimes stop other person's work. That is, I think other people whom she talks to could make more output if she wouldn't talk to them.Actually, I don't have responsibility to judge whether the assistant carry out her duty. Her boss a..My diaryMishika2020-12-27T22:52:53+09:00
But, I suspect whether this may be just my assumption because I know one assistant person seems to me not to motivation to have support to engineer.
In my point of view, she just do minimum desk work of assistant. Instead of the work, she spend more time to insist how she thinks her work eagerly than other assistant members.
In my point of view, she might think herself as considerable person then as she is.
I have some complicated feeling to her because her work may be inefficient and her work sometimes stop other person's work. That is, I think other people whom she talks to could make more output if she wouldn't talk to them.
Actually, I don't have responsibility to judge whether the assistant carry out her duty. Her boss allow her to work as she do at moment. So, I know I should set my feeling of my side.
]]>comment setting is changed
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2020-12-20
I change comment setting in this blog. Person who doesn't have account in this blog service now can't write comment.The reason about this change is I find that I can't check my blogs recently. I found spam comments written in this blog.The comments has been shown for few month when I didn't check this blog.Now I think I don't have enough time to manage this blog comment at moment.So, I change comment setting.My diaryMishika2020-12-20T20:32:43+09:00
The reason about this change is I find that I can't check my blogs recently. I found spam comments written in this blog.
The comments has been shown for few month when I didn't check this blog.
Now I think I don't have enough time to manage this blog comment at moment.
So, I change comment setting.
]]>Overtime work
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2020-05-31
About 2 weeks, I had tough work time.Usually, my work time is about 8:00 to 17:00. But, I worked until 24:30 or 26:00. This means I can't finish my work during that day.This is unusual. This overwork is triggered by many factor. e.g. less interval, no human resource, inefficient business platform.Some factors may come from my work style, I think.I think I should do more smart, efficient work.My diaryMishika2020-05-31T23:51:16+09:00
Usually, my work time is about 8:00 to 17:00. But, I worked until 24:30 or 26:00. This means I can't finish my work during that day.
This is unusual. This overwork is triggered by many factor. e.g. less interval, no human resource, inefficient business platform.
Some factors may come from my work style, I think.
I think I should do more smart, efficient work.
]]>Paid job
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2020-03-29
Sometimes, I remember one scene about ten years before.3 co-workers talked about non-business topic for more than 30 minutes during business hour.I thought even if I improved my work time and reduced 1 hour of necessary time about my work, they lost time more than I improved.The scene meant they were paid even though they didn't work during the non-business talk.They were in higher rank than I were. That is, company paid more salary to them than to me.Of course, I know sometimes chat makes business communication better.I know many factor are related to business obviously and implicitly and I should think business scene in multi point of view. So, the non-business talk may have possibility to make business succeed.But, I feel unfairness.My diaryMishika2020-03-30T00:04:35+09:00
3 co-workers talked about non-business topic for more than 30 minutes during business hour.
I thought even if I improved my work time and reduced 1 hour of necessary time about my work, they lost time more than I improved.
The scene meant they were paid even though they didn't work during the non-business talk.
They were in higher rank than I were. That is, company paid more salary to them than to me.
Of course, I know sometimes chat makes business communication better.
I know many factor are related to business obviously and implicitly and I should think business scene in multi point of view. So, the non-business talk may have possibility to make business succeed.
But, I feel unfairness.
]]>Patient for sloppy talk.
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2020-01-13
In last year, I worked with a colleague for a work item. Our work style was that he worked according to my plan and direction. I thought that we could have good relationship for this work at first. But, finally I found that our relationship seemed to be bad for him because he fell depressed when he know I would leave project and became sick. He took a lot of holidays after he know I would leave project. My boss planned that he took over my work. So, I prepared to hand over my work. But, his many holidays prevented my work's hand over.I sometimes think what was my mistake about my communication to him. Of course, I know I can't understand how he felt and what occurred in him because I'm not professional and also doctor about psychology.But, it seems to me that I might take wrong attitude when he said "I'm a low performer". He sometimes said that kinds of word. I denied his word because he is common worker. To be honest, he seemed to be not special worker in good nor bad in my point of view. And I thought he mi..My diaryMishika2020-01-13T22:15:26+09:00
I thought that we could have good relationship for this work at first. But, finally I found that our relationship seemed to be bad for him because he fell depressed when he know I would leave project and became sick. He took a lot of holidays after he know I would leave project. My boss planned that he took over my work. So, I prepared to hand over my work. But, his many holidays prevented my work's hand over.
I sometimes think what was my mistake about my communication to him. Of course, I know I can't understand how he felt and what occurred in him because I'm not professional and also doctor about psychology.
But, it seems to me that I might take wrong attitude when he said "I'm a low performer". He sometimes said that kinds of word. I denied his word because he is common worker. To be honest, he seemed to be not special worker in good nor bad in my point of view. And I thought he mightn't think that he is a lower performer because he always smiled when he said that kind of sloppy talk. In my point of view, he
mightn't be assumed his lower performance but he proud of his performance, skill and career because he actually might think he is good performer. I mean, he might just want attention to him even though he mightn't think that he isn't low performer.
Repeated his sloppy talk bothered me and make me irritate about communication with him. I regret that I should have stopped his sloppy talk because I could have been patient for his communication for work at least.
]]>Chair I bought
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2020-01-04
I bought a chair for my room in last month. The chair is a gaming chair. Gaming chair is chair in order to continue game on the chair for a long time.The reason why I bought this chair is to prevent lower back ache. I sometimes have lower back ache.My diaryMishika2020-01-04T22:25:18+09:00
The reason why I bought this chair is to prevent lower back ache. I sometimes have lower back ache.
]]>Harrassment ?
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2019-12-22
I joined current project from June. In this team, I started to work with a older business person with few word.Honestly speaking, I think relationship between him and me isn't good. He usually doesn't explain project situation, work process, work procedure and/or any kinds of information related to business and project.So, I should work at my own risk.In last week, our customer requests some measurement of our product. Our boss assigned this work to me and other colleague. The older business person lent his experiment which needs the measurement.But, he doesn't mentioned necessary battery cable to me.He didn't lend me necessary battery cable and He didn't inform me about I should prepare my battery cable.As result, I informed boss about battery cable and he said that the older business person should lend battery cable and finally I can use his battery cable.In my point of view, his attitude seems to be kinds of harassment. I wish this is my misunderstanding.My diaryMishika2019-12-22T20:34:36+09:00
Honestly speaking, I think relationship between him and me isn't good. He usually doesn't explain project situation, work process, work procedure and/or any kinds of information related to business and project.
So, I should work at my own risk.
In last week, our customer requests some measurement of our product. Our boss assigned this work to me and other colleague. The older business person lent his experiment which needs the measurement.
But, he doesn't mentioned necessary battery cable to me.He didn't lend me necessary battery cable and He didn't inform me about I should prepare my battery cable.
As result, I informed boss about battery cable and he said that the older business person should lend battery cable and finally I can use his battery cable.
In my point of view, his attitude seems to be kinds of harassment. I wish this is my misunderstanding.
]]>An episode about English mail
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2019-10-14
Sometimes my colleagues asked me advice about English study because they think that I have better English skill than other colleagues. One day, my colleague ask me to check his English mail. He sent English document to his colleague but he received response mail which said his English document isn't good. Actually, his colleague said in response mail, "Is it true that you had enough TOEIC score?" TOEIC is one of test which measures English skill and I know he has higher score of TOEIC.My colleague said "Is my English bad as he said?" I thought he might think his English is good and want me to agree to him.I checked the his English mail. I found that his English text isn't good. In my point of view, his English didn't comply to English grammar. So, I said "I think so."He hasn't asked me to check his English after this conversation.My diaryMishika2019-10-14T16:33:59+09:00
One day, my colleague ask me to check his English mail. He sent English document to his colleague but he received response mail which said his English document isn't good. Actually, his colleague said in response mail, "Is it true that you had enough TOEIC score?" TOEIC is one of test which measures English skill and I know he has higher score of TOEIC.
My colleague said "Is my English bad as he said?" I thought he might think his English is good and want me to agree to him.
I checked the his English mail. I found that his English text isn't good. In my point of view, his English didn't comply to English grammar. So, I said "I think so."
He hasn't asked me to check his English after this conversation.
]]>Project Management
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2019-09-15
I'm engineer and not Project Manager. I have joined some business project until now. Of course, Project Manager was in all project I joined.In my point of view, all project mangers in project I joined knew and thought what should be archived by our project and thought what should be done by all project members.Usually, the project managers didn't do project task by himself and/or herself. They asked project members to do task. That is reasonable because their responsibility is to manage project, project goal and so on.Sometimes some of project member didn't agree to do task assigned by project manager. The reason was depends on the situation. Sometimes no time. Sometimes, he or she thought the task should be unnecessary.Anyway, in that case, project manager usually explained respectfully why he or she assigned the task, why he or she thought the task was necessary and why he or she thought the project member is proper person for the task.My point is I thought project managers understand his or project and pro..My diaryMishika2019-09-15T22:36:32+09:00
In my point of view, all project mangers in project I joined knew and thought what should be archived by our project and thought what should be done by all project members.
Usually, the project managers didn't do project task by himself and/or herself. They asked project members to do task. That is reasonable because their responsibility is to manage project, project goal and so on.
Sometimes some of project member didn't agree to do task assigned by project manager. The reason was depends on the situation. Sometimes no time. Sometimes, he or she thought the task should be unnecessary.
Anyway, in that case, project manager usually explained respectfully why he or she assigned the task, why he or she thought the task was necessary and why he or she thought the project member is proper person for the task.
My point is I thought project managers understand his or project and project tasks thoroughly.
But, recently, I encountered person in project manager position who doesn't know his project and tasks correctly. He says, "I don't know what customer requests for the project. I don't know why customer requests the task. But, customer requested. That's why the task is to be done."
In my point of view, he isn't right person as project manager because he has no will to manage project, to think project and to understand project. But, he is still in project manager position. I think this is misfortune for him and for all project members including me.
]]>Anger management
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2019-08-25
Anger management is kinds of self management strategy. I read recently the book about anger management. The reason why I try to study anger management is that I want to know how to behave when I encounter rude and wicked person. Unfortunately, I have such encounter wicked and impolite person under the cover of politeness and I think I can't handle the situation.I'd like to know how I help myself under the such situation.Actually, the book about anger management doesn't have silver bullets. I need some training about anger management.But, I found that I haven't noticed my anger sometimes and sometimes remember the anger later. That's not good in anger management point of view. This notification may be hints for me.My diaryMishika2019-08-25T21:28:33+09:00
I'd like to know how I help myself under the such situation.
Actually, the book about anger management doesn't have silver bullets. I need some training about anger management.
But, I found that I haven't noticed my anger sometimes and sometimes remember the anger later. That's not good in anger management point of view. This notification may be hints for me.
]]>2019-06-26
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2019-06-26
Some days ago, a senior business person from partner company said jokingly. "My first contact to you was about 20 years ago. I got yelled by you." I don't remember the contact.I think he remember the contact correctly because he is trustful person and the scene he told is which I should agree about that I should do so if I was in the scene.Anyway, I don't remember the scene. His explanation doesn't recall my memory.But, I can't ignore the expression "got yelled by you". I know I may be more easily angered, I mean more intolerant than colleague around me. But, I don't like to get angry because anger is stressful, boring and tiring for me.But, I wonder other people including him feel that I like to get angry.My diaryMishika2019-06-26T22:25:47+09:00
I think he remember the contact correctly because he is trustful person and the scene he told is which I should agree about that I should do so if I was in the scene.
Anyway, I don't remember the scene. His explanation doesn't recall my memory.
But, I can't ignore the expression "got yelled by you". I know I may be more easily angered, I mean more intolerant than colleague around me. But, I don't like to get angry because anger is stressful, boring and tiring for me.
But, I wonder other people including him feel that I like to get angry.
]]>A boring, stressfull topic
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2019-06-17
This Japanese web page is a advisement column. This column answered to advise request "I'm disappointed in my life with full ups and downs. Sometimes I complain about my life to people around me. But, they usually told me that I'm not only person who suffers tough life."https://cakes.mu/posts/25974Answer from editor has some points. One of points is the reason of statement from people around consulter is that consulter's talk about life is boring and stressful so they don't want to hear consulter's talk.I reached this column from twitter. Many people said this column is valuable and useful on twitter.I remember a counselor said "everybody don't want to hear your talk" more than 10 years ago. I have negative feeling about his word still now. But, I have to agree my interest usually only focus me negatively and my talk is stressful and boring.My diaryMishika2019-06-17T22:00:12+09:00https://cakes.mu/posts/25974
Answer from editor has some points. One of points is the reason of statement from people around consulter is that consulter's talk about life is boring and stressful so they don't want to hear consulter's talk.
I reached this column from twitter. Many people said this column is valuable and useful on twitter.
I remember a counselor said "everybody don't want to hear your talk" more than 10 years ago. I have negative feeling about his word still now. But, I have to agree my interest usually only focus me negatively and my talk is stressful and boring.
]]>What is the purpose of conversation?
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2019-06-14
Recently, I had tried communicating my colleague in order to ask work to him.As result, my communication didn't achieve my objective. More and more I tried explaining his work and my intention, less and less he might understand his work and my intention.Conversation with him provided me a sense of futility every time even though he usually agreed to me about work. I wasn't sure why I felt so tired.The reason why I described "my communication didn't achieve objective" is he threw his work because of "stress" as he said. He said "I can't complete my task because I can't understand what I should do" and he took 1 week off.So, I think my communication didn't achieve my objective because my communication to him didn't keep him work.I'm not sure what is exact cause which make him throw up work because the reason may be triggered by his feeling I can't see.I think I have some point to be improved. One of the points is his conversation purpose may be different from mine.He likes chatting. I felt he tried spinning con..My diaryMishika2019-06-14T21:22:00+09:00
As result, my communication didn't achieve my objective. More and more I tried explaining his work and my intention, less and less he might understand his work and my intention.
Conversation with him provided me a sense of futility every time even though he usually agreed to me about work. I wasn't sure why I felt so tired.
The reason why I described "my communication didn't achieve objective" is he threw his work because of "stress" as he said. He said "I can't complete my task because I can't understand what I should do" and he took 1 week off.
So, I think my communication didn't achieve my objective because my communication to him didn't keep him work.
I'm not sure what is exact cause which make him throw up work because the reason may be triggered by his feeling I can't see.
I think I have some point to be improved. One of the points is his conversation purpose may be different from mine.
He likes chatting. I felt he tried spinning conversation by means of irrelevant questions. I always answered his question and had to try redirecting our conversation.
I remember conversations with him and concluded that his purpose of conversation is conversation itself. He just enjoyed talking even though my purpose is to make him work.
So, he just enjoyed conversation and forgot understanding his work. And I assume that he found what he should do is work, not chat finally. So, he said "I feel stress about work. I can't understand what I should do".
Whether my assumption is right or not, I think I should take care about what is purpose of conversation when I discuss with other colleague.
]]>2019-06-02
https://mishika-sideedge.blog.ss-blog.jp/2019-06-02
I have some experience that person whom I didn't have much interest to had interest to me in office.I think that they had wrong impression to me because they might be lonely and they might feel that my attitude in business may be closer than other person they usually contact in office. As my business policy, I say thank you to person who take effort, time and/or concern to my business and my business asking. In Japan, many people don't say thank you to their colleague. (Of course, I know many person say thank you to their colleague.But, in my point of view, more people don't say thank you to their colleague than people say thank you to colleague.) Lonely people unused to thank you. My thank you may make them misunderstand that I have close feeling to themselves.Or, they may be lonely and they thought I feel lonely same as them because I usually don't chat to other person and usually I work alone.Anyway, person, who might have interest to me and whom I didn't have much interest to me seemed to try to become fr..My diaryMishika2019-06-02T23:03:46+09:00
I think that they had wrong impression to me because they might be lonely and they might feel that my attitude in business may be closer than other person they usually contact in office. As my business policy, I say thank you to person who take effort, time and/or concern to my business and my business asking. In Japan, many people don't say thank you to their colleague. (Of course, I know many person say thank you to their colleague.But, in my point of view, more people don't say thank you to their colleague than people say thank you to colleague.) Lonely people unused to thank you. My thank you may make them misunderstand that I have close feeling to themselves.
Or, they may be lonely and they thought I feel lonely same as them because I usually don't chat to other person and usually I work alone.
Anyway, person, who might have interest to me and whom I didn't have much interest to me seemed to try to become friend of mine. For example, they asked personal question, e.g. food I like, my hobby, school I graduated. Or they tried to chat to me outside of the office.
As result, their try was failed because I don't want business colleague to come closer to my personal life.
I think that my attitude may be overly friendly than appropriate business manner. I should pay attention to my attitude.
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